There always seems to be a moment in people's lives around me where they just know what to do. They seem to have been struck by an idea lightning bolt telling them, "this is what you need to do for the rest of your life."
I never had that feeling. I've been searching for that feeling sense I've turned 20 and that was 8 years ago!
I'm wondering and seriously doubting that it will ever happen. It feels like I'm in purgatory.
My thoughts, "maybe if I do right by others and myself something good will happen to me. I will finally get my big break!"
It's like I moved to Hollywood hoping for the chance to be in a big blockbuster movie and I end up on the streets. I grind, hustle, and still nothing.
I can tell you when I feel the most alive but I don't know how this would help me...It's fresh mountain air, it's looking over a cliff and thinking I can fly but never jumping, it's the times where your in a group and your all doing something so stupid it makes you laugh out-loud, it's that moment right before you come home from a long days work the sigh of relief you get when pulling into your driveway, it's helping someone and not telling anyone what you did, it's opening a door for an elderly woman and seeing her smile at me, it's the perfect picture I just took of a friend and seeing their reaction, and it's God telling me that he loves me.
...Still stuck but I will continue searching
I never had that feeling. I've been searching for that feeling sense I've turned 20 and that was 8 years ago!
I'm wondering and seriously doubting that it will ever happen. It feels like I'm in purgatory.
My thoughts, "maybe if I do right by others and myself something good will happen to me. I will finally get my big break!"
It's like I moved to Hollywood hoping for the chance to be in a big blockbuster movie and I end up on the streets. I grind, hustle, and still nothing.
I can tell you when I feel the most alive but I don't know how this would help me...It's fresh mountain air, it's looking over a cliff and thinking I can fly but never jumping, it's the times where your in a group and your all doing something so stupid it makes you laugh out-loud, it's that moment right before you come home from a long days work the sigh of relief you get when pulling into your driveway, it's helping someone and not telling anyone what you did, it's opening a door for an elderly woman and seeing her smile at me, it's the perfect picture I just took of a friend and seeing their reaction, and it's God telling me that he loves me.
...Still stuck but I will continue searching